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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005 02:18 pm

$RECRUITER wrote, in email:

Recently on national job board you indicated your interest in jobs with the following skillset:

Java, J2EE, Linux, JBoss, and Tomcat

No I damned well did not, you lying sack of shit.  I have experience with precisely one of those, and it shouldn't be a hard guess which one.  (Hint:  It's orthogonal to the other four.)  Do you really think you're going to get my interest or get me to work through you when you start out by trying to feed me an obvious bald-faced lie?

Monday, December 5th, 2005 09:16 am (UTC)
I have gotten very, very good at masking everything, especially pain, so that nobody (*) sees anything except what I want them to see. Especially not pain.

Of course, I'm no longer interviewing for jobs, so it's a non-issue for me in that respect, but it's a useful technique. A pleasantly neutral face deflects an awful lot that I simply don't want to bother with.

It's funny, though, how many people think it's lying to have such a face. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. I don't care. It's nobody's business how I feel, what I think, if I'm in pain. We have, many of us - especially in the geek world - gotten too far into the extreme of all blunt honesty, all the time, and lost this exact point of social masks.

Of course, if the pain's too extreme, there's nothing any mask can do for you. It's going to show through anyway. But if you're stuck living with it for the rest of your life, like I am.. it might be worth developing one.

(*) Alex sees through it for me. But he sees through me anyway.
Tuesday, December 6th, 2005 05:11 am (UTC)
It might be doable if it were only a constant pain. But it spikes sharply upwards so that it can't be masked at all times. If he could find a telecommuting job then it would be much easier. Especially if he was using text to communicate instead of audio. But with audio you can hit the mute button.

I think he could do any job that he set his mind to, if he could do it as a telecommuter. But right now he can't set his mind to anything because he's clouded by depression.