Depression sucks.

[unixronin]

And there's not a lot more than that to say.

My parents know a psychologist who does disability evaluations in Spokane, Washington.  When the subject of my foot trouble and the continuous pain came up in connection with applying for disability, he said, "Of course he's depressed.  Everyone who's in constant pain is depressed."

I hate that it's so hard to find joy in anything any more, or find sufficient motivation to do things.

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And I'm not helping am I?

[cymrullewes.livejournal.com]

I'm caught up in my own worries and work that I'm not as supportive and just bring up more things for you to be depressed about.

Call Dr. Kelly, get a therapy referral. Talk to the podiatrist about the ankle and see if an orthopod needs to do the work. When's your next chiro appointment?

Have you e-mailed Chris Tella to tell him you are local these days? Who knows, USB Warburg might still be looking to hire.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[unixronin.livejournal.com]

Well, we're not really local enough to UBS to make it a practical commute. But he may have other things in the area.

I don't think I still have his contact information though. I might be able to track him down ... I'll have to give it a try.

Can't get the girls to say what they want for lunch., except Wen wants bread and we don't have any. Except, hmmm, hot dog buns I think....

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[unixronin.livejournal.com]

We have a consensus. Mozzarella sticks and french fries.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[cymrullewes.livejournal.com]

Hurrah for you! And thbbbt for me as I had planned on making bread last night but sort of wimped out of it. I suck.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[lonewolf545.livejournal.com]

*fwap* Don't you go getting started too... Y'all have been dealing with a seriously unfun situation, with FAR more than your fair share of bad luck (and outright abuses, when you consider the insurance co in Cali). You can't be perfect all the time. Quite honestly, by the time I finish working each day and doing martial arts, I seldom get much of what I need to done each night, and this past weekend I didn't get ANY of the chores done that I had planned.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[unixronin.livejournal.com]

It still boggles me that CIGNA declared further treatment on my foot "medically unnecessary" at a time when I couldn't walk without my foot breaking open and bleeding.

"Oh, so this happens to everyone, hm? Normal, expected behavior? ...Uh-huh. Didn't think so."

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[cymrullewes.livejournal.com]

I guess I just don't think that I deserve the slack-cutting. I should be able to do everything that I'm used to doing even if most of my day is now taken up by a job outside of the house.

We've always shared the chores. He does the cooking and baby care and I do everything else. Laundry and cleaning. The girls have their chores as well. Taking laundry to and from the basement. Dishes to and from the dishwasher.

I'm a survivor. All of those bad luck and abuses are things to overcome. That which doesn't kill me had better run damn fast away. And I haven't been responding that way like I should be to the laundry, the kitchen clean up, the baking, or the girls's room.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[unixronin.livejournal.com]

And I feel like my shortage of energy and inability to stay on my feet for long is preventing me from pulling my weight.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[cymrullewes.livejournal.com]

I still think we should sit down and write up a schedule/checklist so we can see what we are accomplishing instead of beating ourselves up over what we're missing.

You need to talk to Julie/James about homeschooling for Pirate and Wen.

Re: And I'm not helping am I?

[olafthunderfoot.livejournal.com]

sounds nummy to me!