Do it right, or don't do it at all

[unixronin]

jenkitty asks, If you could get one "do-over" -- that is, if you could go back in time and change one decision or action you've ever made, what would it be?  What do you think would be different now, in your psyche or circumstances?  Don't reply directly in my LJ; post this meme, with your answer to the question, in your own LJ and post the link as a reply here.

This is a question I've considered many times.  I think as long as it's restricted to one action or decision of mine, then there's really nothing there's any point in changing, because I feel I've made so many wrong or simply bad decisions in my life that if I went back and tried to change any of them, it's far more likely than not that I'd just make matters worse.  I have hated the vast majority of my life, in more ways and for more reasons than I know how to explain, many of them not even things I've ever had the least control over or the power to do anything about.  I don't need to go screwing it up even worse.  However careful I was, it'd probably turn out that in taking my best shot at making things better, I'd just second-guessed myself on one of the few things that (whether I was aware of it or not) actually turned out for the best in the first place.

Now if I could just go back and retroactively edit myself out of the Universe altogether, that would be very tempting.  Sometimes you just have to look at something and admit that you screwed it up so badly, you'd have done better to leave it alone in the first place.

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[ilcylic.livejournal.com]

I don't feel like memeing my journal, so I'll just say, "I'd bloody well move to California back when everybody who knew how to turn a computer on was making money hand over fist instead of finishing my college degree first."

My mother did at least have the good sense to apologize for insisting that I not move when I first planned on it.

-Ogre