Depression sucks.

[unixronin]

And there's not a lot more than that to say.

My parents know a psychologist who does disability evaluations in Spokane, Washington.  When the subject of my foot trouble and the continuous pain came up in connection with applying for disability, he said, "Of course he's depressed.  Everyone who's in constant pain is depressed."

I hate that it's so hard to find joy in anything any more, or find sufficient motivation to do things.

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[unixronin.livejournal.com]

It's always at the forefront of your mind, and it just wears you out -- fatigue makes cowards of us all.

Indeed. Very simply put.

Find activities that you enjoy not related to your disability, that push the pain out of your attention. It takes effort, for sure. I got into some OSS projects.

I've been trying to do more OSS work, but it's gotten to be that I can't muster the mental clarity for serious code work either. :( I haven't even gotten around to adding encryption capability into my own ICBM Perl client for ICB. (Part of that is that there's only a handful of people who've tried it, and I get no feedback on it ... I'm basically the only regular user of it, to my knowledge. What's the point in adding encryption if no-one else uses it to send encrypted traffic to?)

[smandal.livejournal.com]

I've been trying to do more OSS work, but it's gotten to be that I can't muster the mental clarity for serious code work either. :(
I was the same way with my fibromyalgia-type thing. I did what I could: building writing RPM spec files, simple debugging and patches, etc.